Well, I feel a little bit challenged. This week’s theme for Photo Art Friday is: “self-portrait” I bet, many of you expect of me something great here, but I have been feeling a little (or a lot) under the weather lately, and all my plans for some real self-portraits photo session that I had in mind went to hell…
Today I’ve decided to get a little creative with those few shots I managed to take this week and this is what I ended up with:
In addition I took a few self-portraits for my giveaway that is going on my facebook page, and this is one of them:
oh… and how could I not share the latest news with you. No. 2 is walking:
I my case the beauty of aging is just growing up to a moment when I finally am not fighting with everybody and everything. When I do not go upstream just for the sake of being the one who does it. When I have my own family. My kids. My love. When I finally can talk with my parents like equals while humbly admitting they know more, and they are more experienced than I am. No matter what.
We had a break to eat and drink.
No.2 seemed to enjoy her 1st hike.
When we walked back, the last few hills dad had to carry both our Sweethearts.
The dog had a great time, as well.
Making an apple pie. My husband’s favorite.
It hasn’t been very quiet around. The only time when I can relax a little and hear as little as possible of the baby’s crying and our No. 1 jumping/running/yelling/screaming/being herself is when I am in the bathtub with my ears below the water. I hear only the sound of me breathing and the water running in the walls. It is beautiful.
Ok. I though, and though and though about this picture. I hate it. This is how I look in the morning. These days the first thing in the morning is washing our doggy and her crate. She is always dirty and sticky. Not completely potty trained she has her night accidents.
I did take different pictures that day but I deleted them from the camera by accident. This one is what I ended up with and well… I wish I had something else.
As much as carrying N0. 2 in this carrier hurts my back, it is better than using the stroller. Especially when I have to take the puppy for a walk and I can’t leave No.1 and No.2 by themselves at the house.
Yesterday we had a small tantrum while coming back from one of those walks.
This is how it ended up.
Good, this picture do not have a sound. There was a lot of crying and screaming.
But I kept my poker face. Or maybe I’m just that tired 😉
By the way, if you saw me setting up the camera for this self-portrait and then managing everybody to get to the right spot and staying there you would give me an award. I have no idea how I made it. Those two on the leashes, No.2 in front of me trying to grab the camera and being on my way all the time. Ugh… someday I will laugh out loud looking at those pictures.
I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend.
What are your plans?
I do plan to spend it in front of the TV, watching new episodes of Grey’s Anatomy and Once Upon a Time on Netflix while eating homemade chocolate pudding 🙂 Can’t wait. Now I just need to walk everybody.
The most important thing that happened this past week was…
… I finally dug out the sewing machine I had gotten from my in-law a year (or more) ago…
Haven’t made anything yet, but it’s all set up and ready to use.
On Saturday I brought the machine into the house. Cleaned it and… hm… didn’t know where to start and what to do with it.
Serving dinner. Tomato galette. Yumm!!!
With this picture I got lucky.
On Sunday I didn’t take any other self-portrait and this one was taken just by accident.
The day before we went to Jo-Ann’s to get some thread for my sewing machine and just look around for things I would need if I want to start sewing. Late at night I had tried to put the thread on the machine but I couldn’t figure it out, so we called my husband’s mom. She helped a little but still… it didn’t work.
So on Monday I called my mom.
We talked on Skype, so I was able to show her the machine.
Then she guided me through each step. During the next few hours the machine was ready to go, and what’s most important I felt super comfortable and confident about sewing.
The funny thing is that
– my mom had been a seamstress for 40 years,
– she had taught sewing in sewing vocational high school for 15 years,
– she’d made many of my clothes
– I had watched her sew every single day for so many years
BUT at the same time
she had never had the patience to teach me or my sister how to sew.
Finally, after so many years and thousands miles away she taught me something.
Isn’t that funny!?
Also this week, I have discovered a bentonite clay. It does wonders to my skin 🙂
And this picture is a reflection of how I ‘ve been feeling lately… in pieces… a piece here, a piece there…
This picture is an ode to my back which hurts like hell. It has been for the most part of this week. I know that big part of it is the weather. It has changed a little and I can feel it, but for the most of the time it is our No. 2 screaming her lungs off each time I put her down. At the same time she is not getting any lighter.
Easy and quick to make dinner: Pasta.
with this little one rolling back and forth between my legs …
At least that way I can have a few things done without having to hold her.
Our No.1 is in the “terrible two” stage and she looks just like that:
ALL THE TIME.
Day and Night.
No. 2, even though she looks very happy and content here:
isn’t any better, actually.
Mornings are the best for us. She is mostly happy but when we get to about 12pm the fun part begins. The only way to make her happy is to put boob in her mouth. It works every single time. It means she is tied to me for the rest of the day, till about 11pm when she finally falls asleep for more than 30 minutes. And when she finally goes to bed I lay in mine, and instead of sleeping, I just lay there… thinking…
Speaking about thinking; this project is getting harder and harder each week. I do want to keep it in this “family journal” theme but I’m running out of ideas. With each passing day in order to keep it interesting with not only feet, hands and from arm’s length face shots, I need to think more about what I’m going to do, and sometimes feet, hands and from arm’s length face shots are what I end up with 😉
Don’t judge one by ones patio 😉
It’s a mess and I struggle to find an extra energy to make it look nice.
I got a little creative here.
At first I had some troubles with the right focus but finally when I placed myself in the right spot it was nothing but relaxing fun 🙂
I desperately need a change.
I crave it like a dry plant water… .
I should star with a new hair cut, I guess.
One of those “arm’s length” shots.
My morning shot of energy. Physical, as well as mental energy. Too bad I can’t drink more than one cup.
Who would like to breastfeed for me, so I could drink more than 2… hm… 3… hmm… 3 1/2 cups of my dear ambrosia… ?!!!
trying to create something totally different I ended up with this .gif . Not really what I had in my mind but it’ll do for now.
That’s exactly how I feel!- Like I am going crazy!
btw, who knows a good way to get rid of dark circles under eyes… ?
It’s been a hot week here and finally they opened on old playground near us which was closed for almost 9 months because of complete re-doing. I haven’t seen this place (or any other playground) so packed with running and yelling kids. It appeared that the generation of today’s kids still can jump, run and swing. I thought that it’s a long time forgotten skill 😉
This park is walking distance from us so each day before or after dinner when the weather cools down we walk down to the park where for an hour or so our NO. 1 is in a hog heaven!
That’s exactly what we did last Thursday. We went to the park. While my husband was running after NO. 1 I was watching them and freezing my butt off. The weather here is so crazy. Sometimes I hate it. It’s so hot during the day and when it comes to around sunset the temperature drops and it gets really cold, especially with the wind blowing. Ugh…
Watching all those kids (and adults) running in their shorts and short sleeve t-shirts I was getting even more cold. My husband always makes fun of me that being raised in such a cold country strangely I have no immunity to the cold.
by the way, Poland is not that cold. It snows there during the Winter and rains in Fall but other than that I would say it’s pretty nice. People always think that Poland is like Siberia but it’s not!
It still doesn’t change the fact that I hate the cold!
Next evening, at the park, as well. We went there a bit earlier so it hadn’t gotten cold yet, but at the end I got cold again and wanted to go home what wasn’t that easy with our NO. 1 enjoying all the fun things around. We had to bribe her with the vision of a yogurt and cheerios waiting for her at the house 😉
Two things she loves: swing and slide. Nothing else matters.
On Saturday, at the park, again.
This time we went there before noon and the weather was just gorgeous.
While No. 1 was running like crazy around the playground…
… enjoying the warm weather I lied down on the grass with NO 2.
Of course, the Big Sister always cares about the well-being of her Little Sis. She always says: “you ok, baby?” and when No. 2 is crying she asks: “whats wong, baby?” (yes, she skips the “r”). The cutest thing ever.
An hour of free time in my hands turned into this photo (and a few more, but this one I like the best).
Killing boredom during one of those long night feedings I played with textures and ended up with this:
I like it enough to post two almost the same pictures. I just couldn’t pick one. I like them both. With and without the texture.
Every time I go outside, to water the plants, to go to do the laundry, to check the water temperature in the swimming pool, to take a picture… SHE ALWAYS RUNS after me wanting to go, too! Running towards the door she yells at dad: “bye bye” and off she goes with me.
Yesterday I went almost all day without thinking about this project AT ALL. All the sudden at 10:30 pm (!!!) I remembered. Had no freaking idea what to do.
There is a long story behind this picture which was waiting for a different moment and more time to prepare myself for this shot. From the day I started this project I knew I want to recreate an image from Stephen King’s “the Shining” book’s cover (Polish edition). This cover wouldn’t let me fall asleep if the book’s cover wasn’t facing down on my desk after I read it before going to bed. I used be addicted to S. King’s and D.R. Koontz books when I was a teenager.
I hope I will approach this idea one more time as this one is not what I have in my head.
Enjoying my book. Funny and really entertaining. I know that there is a movie with Jennifer Aniston and Owen Wilson (I can’t stand this guy, by the way!!!) based on this book. I found out about this book reading Cesar Millan’s book “Be the pack leader” last month. I am in a mood for doggy books lately 😉
That’s for now, my friends. I will drag my tired self to the kitchen to make a new cup of green tea!
by the way, for those who breastfeeding in public is an issue worth to discuss, please join the dialog under my post for World Moms Blog: “Poland via USA: Breastfeeding in public?”.
I am so confused lately that I forgot to post Thursday’s picture last week. I just figured that out. I’m just not feeling very good lately.
So here we go:
On Thursday I was on Skype talking with my parents in Poland. They are not really an “Internet people” so each time I call I send them link to my blog. They love to look through the pictures of me and their grandkids.
On Friday I was hanging out in a pool area with the kids. No 2 while wiggling her legs and arms was enjoying the fresh air blowing on her. No 1 was running around the pool in circles. For about an hour non stop 🙂
She still does not want to have anything to do with the water. She just LOVES to play around it.
On Saturday we went to a playground. I didn’t take my camera with me so I used my husband’s phone to take those shots.
Our No 1 just loves swings. She always has. Now she is using the regular swing and watching her I was just thinking that it seems like it was just a few months ago when she had to be in that secured “infant” swing chair.
Time just flies by when you have kids.
On Sunday I made “carrot pate” and here you see me mastering I CAN DO ANYTHING WITH ONE HAND WHILE AT THE SAME TIME HOLDING MY NO. 2 style.
I think that the fairy would claim a bankruptcy if she worked with me this past week. Almost no smiles what so ever. No matter how hard everybody tried. At the same time I feel like instead of blood there is a green tea and honey flowing in my veins. I drink only one coffee a day (because of the nursing) and while I don’t want to drink more of it I do need some kind of boost to get through the day. And it’s a green tea. A LOT OF IT! Cup after cup. MANY CUPS.
Tuesday was kinda pajamas day. For me and for NO 1. And a walking barefoot day, too. We like to walk barefoot.
On Wednesday I had a delicious veggie-fruits smoothie for dinner.
After that while husband and NO 2 were napping I took NO 1 outside for some shooting.
And I swear for my mother… we are rising a future archeologist or a miner 😉 This girl’s best toy when she is outside are stones and rocks. She always sneaks them to the house where I find them hidden all over the house… .
Anyway, today’s selfie is not taken yet, and it’s 6:30 pm already. It’s really been a struggle to keep up with this project lately but I am committed to finish it.
This past week happened to be very exhausting. I think one of the most exhausting since No 2 came along. It’s actually funny because she slept through the night 3 times (including last night) so I don’t know why I feel like crap all the time. She is a “high maintenance” baby, as we call her. If she doesn’t sleep she needs our constant attention. My husband experienced it yesterday as I took a small break from the kids. Nap and a shower. Later he admitted he is tired of trying to entertain her.
“I know how you feel, dear. I feel like that almost 24/7”, I thought 😉
and this is how high maintenance baby looks like these days:
Back to 365 Project:
On Saturday we had in-laws taking care of the kids for a few hours. I finally had a chance to get on my husband’s motorcycle and enjoy the ride like in those good old days before kids 😉
We went for ice cream and to Winchester Mystery House. Very cool place but we didn’t get through the entire tour. sometime in the middle of it we got a call from in-laws: “PLEASE COME HOME”.
Did I mention that we have a high maintenance baby?! 😉
Those are the only few pictures I took that day. Wasn’t very happy how our day turned out but at least I ate my ice cream in peace.
Playing with reflections
On Monday we visited Golden Gate National Cemetery… (more pictures from that trip here).
This portrait is everything you don’t want to have on a family picture:
One baby totally covered. The other one screaming and kicking the heck out of me. Mom and dad laughing while on the background a thousands of graves of people who died fighting for this country during a stupid war. At least people that were watching us had fun… .
I love Lightroom. It makes me look so pretty. These days I especially love one preset called “It was only a dream”. You can download it for free from here.
Just sitting with my girls. Trying to get some rest for my sore arms while No 2 is not screaming and wanting to be held.
I am a breastfeeding mamma, I think you know it by now, and I will stand up to support those who fight for the right to breastfeed in public. If that happens to me (feeding in public) I am always covered because I want to be left alone and not having fight with people over it. Even covered, though, I receive “the look” from time to time and it makes my really angry. That’s why I am very happy seeing a women like those two (different article here and fb picture with many supportive and NOT comments) fighting not only for their country but within it for their own personal rights!
In uniform or not… I think breastfeeding is a fundamental right and it shouldn’t be such a taboo… .
Since I got up I was planning to be done with today’s photos, and all chores around the house as soon as possible. I thought: After I’m done I want to do nothing for the rest of the day.
I mean I want to sit and read a book. Just finished one I thought I will never finish. Maybe because it’s hard to read something that’s about you, and you think that the person who wrote this had been sitting in your closet for the last 10 years watching you very closely…. and now she is pointing out your darkest secrets!
Anyway I wish I could go for a nice long walk, but the weather is not very encouraging for this kind of activiti, and I feel I’m getting sick. Oh well, at least our daughter won’t be suffering alone.
Hill from Capturing Motherhood has started a new photo challenge – Picture me (im) perfectly. I really like that idea because I do that almost all the time… Maybe even much too often. I picture myself in this dark light of not being perfect in any part of my life… Sad… Kind of. I guess. But who is, goddamnit !?!?!
And the weather… It’s been only two rainy days, and I’m getting depressed already. It sucks!
I want to be left alone, and at the same time I know that I can’t demand it from anybody. I’ve got mine resposibilies around here and I can’t just stop doing it. It’s like if my husband stopped working because he feels kind of down, and he just would be laying in front of TV for days… It doesn’t work like that. I know, but I wish it was possible.
Totally black and white feelings today. Quick peek outside the window this morning and I knew I won’t be in very good mood today.
Actually the weather is not that bad as it looked this morning… but still… it’s raining.
My outdoor shot is an indoor strawberry. It’s an outdoor plant during the day, and indoor during the night.
I think I’m done with cleaning, doing loundry, folding loundry, feeding everybody (till dinner time). Meantime our Miss Sick Pants had cough attack, twice… Both lasted for about half an hour… She is so miserable… 😦
Actually wait… she was miserable. Now she’s sitting in Di’s crate looking very comfy and content. At least she’s feeling better (until the next cough attack).
Litte One napping – time for mamma’s painkillers and one on one with book…