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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 51 & 52)

Happy New Year, everybody! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas time and very relaxing start of 2013. This post is massive and I am sorry for that. Please grab a cup of tea or coffee and take your time to go through it. 
With all what was going on around here I had to skip one post. I have been taking self-portraits I just didn’t have the time and energy to put it all together and publish here.

Those are my last days of this project. There is only few days left, and I am feeling a little nostalgic about it. It was a tremendous challenge sometimes. Now it is nothing but a pleasure to be able to look back at all those pictures and remember day by day what  I was up to.

It’s been a journey! Really!

There is a few more pictures to be taken and it is not the last post from this series, so I won’t get all nostalgic here… not yet!


Last Friday it was raining and inspired by some of the pictures my friend took in the rain, I decided to go out and try something with the rain, too. I just got wet, and ended up with an arm’s length  head shot. 😦

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The next day, on Saturday we left for Christmas. It was raining and I had plenty of opportunities to do some “rain shooting”, although it had to be from the outside of a moving car.

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The trip did not go the way we had planned it and at some point we had to stay at a hotel.

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The next day, before getting back on the road we had to run some errands … and while doing it those pictures were taken.

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and we hit the road again

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Merry after Christmas, my friends. I hope they were full of joy and happiness.

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Gifts, gifts, and more gifts… not a big fan of this part but, oh well… at least kids were happy!

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Later the same day life had gotten very bitter, and while each year I think that my Christmas can not get any worse… the next year it actually gets worse, and worse, and I right now I don’t want to think about the next year.

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Back on the road. This time following the u-hauling husband. 360 miles home with not very happy kids on board.

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and while driving I took some pictures of the amazing landscapes are we were passing through.

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It wasn’t the first time we were driving those roads but never before I had seen snow there, so I was pretty excited about it. We stopped just to let No.1 to touch the snow but she didn’t want to have anything to do with it. She was pretty scared… I have no idea why.

She said “she is scary” 😉

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When we got back home, this is what was waiting in our mail box. 

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Post card from one of my clients. I couldn’t be any happier. It took my mind away from all that stuff that was going on in my head, and it made me smile. 


Just a quick snap. Nothing special. After we came back from our trip it was nothing but feeling overwhelmed with the amount of work that has to be done around our place. I wasn’t really feeling like being extra creative with the self-portraits.

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Then I got an eye infection, or whatever that was. Very painful and uncomfortable. It disappeared as quickly as it appeared, though. 

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Last Sunday I had a family photo session after witch we went for a lunch.  

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And this is a sneak peek of this session. What a great day we had! 

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The First day of the 2013 we spent on a beach. 

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Not in a mood for pictures 😉

First of all I spent all day in my pajamas.

Second of all, the day before I had this big plan for the next day. You know the one in witch I rule the world; I clean the whole house, go grocery shopping, maybe go for a walk with kids, etc. 

Then I got up, looked at the piles of laundry here, boxes there, and I knew I need a coffee first. So I had my coffee and feeling a little bit better I vacuumed. And that’s how I ruled the world yesterday.

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 The last few pictures I am going to post next week. I want take my time to sum it up although I should say, I already did it with a post on BonBon Break “365 Self Portrait Project – A life changing Resolution“. It was published today. So far I can’t think of a better summary, sure, I should have said “thank you” more but this part will be here, on my blog. 

This essay is my second piece written for BonBon Break. The first one “Portraits of a Mother” was chosen to top 5 posts in 2012. What a great way to start the New Year and to finish this project.

In addition, if I can say I helped at least one woman to change her approach from “running away from the camera” to “willingly staying where she supposed to be” (and I know I have!) I will call this project a success of my life! 

Warm hugs!

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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 50th)

I promised to myself that the last few weeks of this project I’m going to take the most creative pictures EVER. Yeah, right. This week’s series is terribly ordinary. Hopefully our road trip brings new and fresh inspiration. 



Feet time 😉

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Believe me or not, it’s me.

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Me and my eye(s)

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We had a sick baby on board this past week. Nothing very serious, but being very clingy in general, being sick made her even more glued to her momma.

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Not very proud of this picture. After almost a year of taking self-portraits I should be better than shots like this one. Arm’s length? with no twist to it, with no fish lips, with these tired eyes of mine, with no texture. Nothing! Shame on me! Seriously!

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I finally set up skype on the computer I’m using now. 

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Just laying on the grass time.

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The idea of today’s picture has not entered the smallest brain cell of mine, yet. There is too much laundry to do, to think about anything else. 

If I am not around, I do want to wish to all of you Warm and Happy Holidays! 


365 Self-Portrait Project (week 41st)

As I mentioned in one of my previous posts, I try to publish one or two posts in between each Friday, so there aren’t only self-portraits here.

Not everything always work out the way we want it… huh?

This week just flew by. I wasn’t very busy, though.

Or… maybe I was…

Having two kids is already a piece of work, so saying I wasn’t busy would be actually a lie. Two days without the husband. Sewing, crocheting, cleaning.

Yes, you read it right: I finally made my first sewing creation: skirt for No.1

Just look for me in the next Project Runway 😉

Oh… and I had a WONDERFUL photo shoot on Saturday. It was truly amazing.


On Friday, quick shot of my favorite belt (Yes, my belt, not my butt). I bought it about 10 years ago. It’s been with me through bad and good.


On Saturday I was the photographer

and she was the model:

and I snapped a few pictures of this guy:

Back in days he was my ESL teacher.

Today, a dear friend.


The next day there was a pain. A horrible pain.


My Little Darlin always gets in a picture. No matter if I want it or not.

Me envisioning something is a one thing, but making it happen… oh dear, that’s a different story.


On Tuesday husband was gone for almost all day, but before he left I’d made him banana pancakes for breakfast.

and later I’d tried to fix a small problem in something I’ve made for No.2:

Those leg warmers were a little too big on the top part and I had to do something to make them fit better.

Can’t really say I fixed it!

Did I mention that No. 1 always gets a way to be in a picture ;)
Did I mention that No. 1 always finds a way to get in the picture 😉

At least it all had inspired me to take some pictures of our cranky-not sleeping-but definitely yawning a lot No.2


With the husband gone for the day and my headache back, there was no way I could survive that day without any pills.



I know those two picture are a little of a stretch.

Here, there is almost nothing of me… that tiny piece of my foot…

and here, there is not very visible reflection in our dog’s eye.

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But you know what, I took much better shots of our daughter having fun and that’s what matters the most. Those simple moments of happiness… all because there was a wind blowing in her face and leaves dancing around her.

I think we all could learn a lot from our kids. Mostly how to enjoy our life.

Have a wonderful weekend my friends. Get out there and feel the wind!


I’m sorry I didn’t have the chance to answer to all your comments from last week. I’ve been more into the real life than the Internet one this past week. It felt really good, actually. Maybe I should do it more often 😉

365 Self-Portrait Project (week 37th)

This week we’ve had a slight improvement. No. 2 is playing by herself a little more. She sleeps more, too.

But even with that improvement I want to scream. Just like that:

Bjork. Photo: John Baptiste Mondino

and here a little song for you all. One of my favorite artists: Bjork.




Instead of screaming, though, I look rather like that.

This Little Creature (No.2) we’ve made teaches me a lot about my limits, and it’s not pleasant.


While doing grocery shopping on Saturday.


On Sunday we went for a hike. Not very long, but long enough for everybody to get tired.

I link-up this picture to Bonnie’s theme this week: “the beauty of aging“.

I my case the beauty of aging is just growing up to a moment when I finally am not fighting with everybody and everything. When I do not go upstream just for the sake of being the one who does it. When I have my own family. My kids. My love. When I finally can talk with my parents like equals while humbly admitting they know more, and they are more experienced than I am. No matter what.

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We had a break to eat and drink.

No.2 seemed to enjoy her 1st hike.

When we walked back, the last few hills dad had to carry both our Sweethearts.

The dog had a great time, as well.


Making an apple pie. My husband’s favorite.


It hasn’t been very quiet around. The only time when I can relax a little and hear as little as possible of the baby’s crying and our No. 1 jumping/running/yelling/screaming/being herself is when I am in the bathtub with my ears below the water. I hear only the sound of me breathing and the water running in the walls. It is beautiful.


Ok. I though, and though and though about this picture. I hate it. This is how I look in the morning. These days the first thing in the morning is washing our doggy and her crate. She is always dirty and sticky. Not completely potty trained she has her night accidents.

I did take different pictures that day but I deleted them from the camera by accident. This one is what I ended up with and well… I wish I had something else.


As much as carrying N0. 2 in this carrier hurts my back, it is better than using the stroller. Especially when I have to take the puppy for a walk and I can’t leave No.1 and No.2 by themselves at the house.

Yesterday we had a small tantrum while coming back from one of those walks.

This is how it ended up.

Good, this picture do not have a sound. There was a lot of crying and screaming.

But I kept my poker face. Or maybe I’m just that tired 😉

By the way, if you saw me setting up the camera for this self-portrait and then managing everybody to get to the right spot and staying there you would give me an award. I have no idea how I made it. Those two on the leashes, No.2 in front of me trying to grab the camera and being on my way all the time. Ugh… someday I will laugh out loud looking at those pictures.

I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend.

What are your plans?

I do plan to spend it in front of the TV, watching new episodes of Grey’s Anatomy and Once Upon a Time on Netflix while eating homemade chocolate pudding 🙂 Can’t wait. Now I just need to walk everybody.

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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 30th)

Short intro to this post:

Our No.1 is in the “terrible two” stage and she looks just like that:


Day and Night.

No. 2, even though she looks very happy and content here:

isn’t any better, actually.

Mornings are the best for us.  She is mostly happy but when we get to about 12pm the fun part begins. The only way to make her happy is to put boob in her mouth. It works every single time. It means she is tied to me for the rest of the day, till about 11pm when she finally falls asleep for more than 30 minutes. And when she finally  goes to bed I lay in mine, and instead of sleeping, I just lay there… thinking…

Speaking about thinking; this project is getting harder and harder each week. I do want to keep it in this “family journal” theme but I’m running out of ideas. With each passing day in order to keep it interesting with not only feet, hands and from arm’s length face shots, I need to think more about what I’m going to do, and sometimes feet, hands and from arm’s length face shots are what I end up with 😉


Don’t judge one by ones patio 😉

It’s a mess and I struggle to find an extra energy to make it look nice.


I got a little creative here.

At first I had some troubles with the right focus but finally when I placed myself in the right spot it was nothing but relaxing fun 🙂


I desperately need a change.

I crave it like a dry plant water… .

I should star with a new hair cut, I guess.


One of those “arm’s length” shots.


My morning shot of energy. Physical, as well as mental energy. Too bad I can’t drink more than one cup.

Who would like to breastfeed for me, so I could drink more than 2… hm… 3… hmm… 3 1/2 cups of my dear ambrosia… ?!!!

Anybody?!!! Pleeeaaaaaseeee!


trying to create something totally different I ended up with this .gif . Not really what I had in my mind but it’ll do for now.


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That’s exactly how I feel!- Like I am going crazy!

btw, who knows a good way to get rid of dark circles under eyes… ?

Oh… wait… I know one. It is called “sleep”.

Hope you guys are feeling more sane than I am.

365 Self-Portrait Project (week 24th)

First of all, I want to mention, the community of wold’s mothers World Moms Blog I contribute to, has gotten on ForbesWoman’s list of “Top 100 Websites for Women 2012“!!! Isn’t it that great!!!

Next to this positive news there is not so positive one:

because, being honest with you, I am getting a little tired of this 365 project… .

A few times this week I thought about not doing it anymore.

More than physically I feel mentally exhausted!

Our No.2 sleeps really good but the thing is that after I feed her at night I have such a hard time falling back to sleep and by the time I do fall asleep it is time to get up again. Still there is something more to it than just not getting enough of sleep… .

Luckily I was able to pull myself together and keep going one day at a time… .

So here we go:


Last Friday I had a really hard time to come up with something. I took about 10 different pictures. Every singe one sucked. This one sucked too, so I had to edit it to hide all the imperfections and vuala:

The Hollie Rogue


These days I’m feeling pretty blue, under the weather, sad, depressed, melancholic… you name it! Each day I hope for a better tomorrow and for the door to open and show me the blue sky!

I know, I know, the door won’t open on its own…


Park, Park, Park!

Every single day. After dinner we go to the park where our NO. 1 is in heaven!


Have I mentioned that every day we go to the park?! 😉


On Tuesday I baked challah for the first time in my life and it was so delicious!!! While I was taking pictures of it No. 1 was stealing a piece after piece whenever I turned to do something else. I caught her red-handed 😉

but I couldn’t say NO to this smile:


Yesterday we spent our morning and early afternoon in the swimming pool. No. 1 is not afraid of the water anymore. Now it’s the opposite. She doesn’t want to get out. I got so tired of swimming with her so I sat on the edge of the swimming pool and was pulling her back and forth until my arms got tired, then it was time to go home…

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but she didn’t want to:


One of those pictures from “whatever” series when I just need to take a picture but there is nothing interesting going on.

A mirror or the blinds always rescue me in those moments.

Hope you have a great weekend, my friends!

Hope to see you next week in a much better mood!

365 Self-Portrait Project (week 20th)

What can I say today… . I had a really rough night and my eyes are really heavy today.

I’m sleepy. Very sleepy. I’ve been like that all week. I’m speechless as well. The lack of energy is killing me… . I smell like spit all the time and the only me-time is while taking a shower which these days I try to stretch as long as I can just to have that time for myself. But life goes on so do my 365 Project.


On Friday while our No 2 was napping I took No 1 outside our apartment to spent some time with her… I ended up with bunch of pictures of her and a few selfies. The weather has been really beautiful. Too bad I can’t just go outside, lay on the chair with a book and a cup of coffee and enjoy the sun… .


I do, though, have some time to read a book. A few pages at a time. Mostly while feeding No 2. I guess, she is in a growing stage or there is something wrong with me because she acts like she is hungry all the time. So she eats all the time and I have a book always close by so whenever I feed her I just don’t sit and stare blankly at the tv. I do actually do that with the book anyway. But at least I look like I’m reading and that makes me feel better 😉


Sunday was the Solar Eclipse. We didn’t watch it. We just went outside with our No 1 to enjoy the weird light, sit on the grass and play. She didn’t play much though, she slept for most of the time 🙂

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Monday morning I started with oatmeal-strawberry smoothie. I wanted to post this recipe but I had no time to do that.

Later that day we went to a pool. Fun time for our two  year old. Last year she was in the water trying to swim. This year she is more afraid so she just played around it which was fine with me as I really didn’t feel like getting into the water.


I love scones – that’s official.

On Tuesday I woke up really early and to fill up the time somehow I baked some strawberry-dark chocolate chunks scones. Yum!


That’s from when No. 2 was napping and the room was dark. I really like how this picture turned out.


Random shots from yesterday.

While the last picture is not the best one, for some reason I really like it:

It reminds me of this photo from when I was pregnant with No.2:

Normally I would’ve used today’s picture in this post as well but I’ve decided to change it as I do not have that much time each morning (and I’m really tired) to think about it.

Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend.

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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 19)

This week was pretty much normal. I got a few headaches and aches here and there in general. It’s because I do not sleep like I used to… (oh well). Our Sleeping Beauty is really good, though. I shouldn’t complain.


She likes to be held. A LOT. It’s pretty hard to be a walking swing chair for her with my sore back. Sometimes I feel like I just want to sit and scream it hurts so bad… .

(for those who don’t know: I had a very serious back injury several years ago)

It didn’t bother me with our No 1. She wasn’t very needy. This one is all about hugging, kissing and sleeping in our arms.


We visited a wonderful place on Mother’s Day. I couldn’t have gotten better flowers to celebrate it 🙂



On Monday we had started the day very early. Our No 2 woke up around 6am and she soon went back to sleep but not me. I stayed up just to be able to enjoy the quiet time in front of the computer and a big cup of tea before everybody gets up.

At least during those hours when I’m up with the baby I have the time to blog and play with my pictures! 


Before I even started the day, during one of the nightly feedings I created this:

This is one of the self-portraits I had posted last week so I knew I actually am not done with Tuesday’s self-portrait. I was really tired that day as we had a few wake ups that night what usually doesn’t happen.

I dragged myself to do the laundry and while doing it I had the most miserable expressions on my face, ever 😉 I was just tired. Really tired.

After I took this picture I had a different idea for it and I had decided not to post it until I create what I really had in mind but later I changed my mind and here we go. Me pretending that I’m calm and have everything under control. [totally staged photo!!!] 😉


Bath day and headache day. Lovely husband took care of the kids while I lied down for a nap. First I thought I am not going to be able to fall asleep, then I heard a terrible noise like something JUST GOT BROKEN and I knew I had to get up and see what’s going on and clean the mess…, but I couldn’t get up I was so tired. A few minutes after I was sound asleep.

When I got up there was a mess to clean up, of course. Our No 1 had gotten into a potted plant and broke the pot and there was a soil all over the kitchen floor which of course my husband tried to clean  but he is not good at that at all 😉

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“Hello World”

She is finally awake for longer periods and more often. She still sleeps a lot but when she doesn’t she smiles and follows us with her eyes and makes the funniest sounds ever. She is totally different from our No 1!

I struggled with those pictures like crazy. Most of my selfies I have taken with 35mm lens. I think I haven’t taken a single self-portrait with my wide angle/macro cap which used with 18-55mm makes the camera really heavy, at least too heavy to hold it in one hand while twisting it and trying to take a self-portrait.

That’s why I look a little troubled on those pictures below 😉

I will not post today’s photo in here as I really don’t feel like taking one right now but I want to be done with this post as soon as possible.

Anyway, I hope you have a great weekend, my friends!

Hugs from my tired corner!

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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 18)

I’m writing this post being not in my twenties anymore. One day I woke up feeling 30 and that was it. As my friend says: “Life begins after 30” 😉

I think my life have really started when I had my first baby.

Before that it was just preparing, tasting, seeking… .

These days my life flies by and I don’t know when and how. It’s crazy:


… and this picture is the evidence for that 😉


Those pictures were taken on the run. The one with my reflection was literally taken on the run. I started the day thinking how great self-portraits I’m going to take at the Mystery Spot in Santa Cruz (it’s a link to a few pictures and a short story from our trip) where we were going but not knowing the life with two small kids that well I overestimated it and there was no way for me to just relax and have at least 5 minutes for myself up there. Our screaming and throwing tantrums No 1 focused all the attention on her. Not only my attention but all the people who were around us trying to enjoy their tour.


It might look a little confusing with the first picture in which I’m breastfeeding her… .

I bottle-feed her as well… .

She is not a very good eater. She still sleeps a lot and the only way for me not to loose my milk supplies and for her to get enough milk is pumping and bottle-feeding her in between breastfeeding. [sigh!]

At least this time I have an electric pump not manual like with my No 1. I HATED IT!!!

So at the same time I was feeding No 2, No 1 was having her breakfast and I was trying to eat mine while going through the pictures for this post.


She is the most happiest baby while sleeping on me or her dad. No matter how uncomfortable her position looks she doesn’t care.

You think this was comfortable?:

I don’t 😉


…and again.. day with the Little One on my arms. Sleeping.


Out of the dish washer detergent 🙂


whole wheat blueberry-banana pancakes for breakfast. It’s all seems like a quiet morning but just for your notice I took this picture about 20 minutes ago (11:20am) and after that I put away that fork and gobbled down a few of those like I didn’t eat for a week. There is no time to enjoy food these days 😉

My head is spinning today and the only thing I think of is to go for a long walk. Just me and my camera.

… or to sit and cry! Cry the hell out of me…

Oh NO, wait… the first thing I think about is a SHOWER!!! I wish I could take a long, hot shower, than I wish I could sit and cry the hell out of me… and then clean on my body and soul go for a long lonely walk.

How does that sound… for me it sounds like a wishful thinking… .

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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 13)

This week we are still 3 people (plus dog) household. Next week that is going to change and I can’t wait. I think, I am more scared that anything else. We are going to have TWO KIDS!!! When did that happen 😉


Saturday was a lazy day from what I remember. It rained all day with a few breaks and during one of them I took a tripod and my camera outside and in a hurry I took this picture.


Sunday was unbelievable boring. Gosh, I thought I’m going to kill myself. Wandering around the house I got so grumpy and cranky that at some point I just lied down trying to relax and just be, but that didn’t last for a long time. Anyway I was so happy when that day finally ended.


It suppose to be a picture of my necklace but with about 20 pictures taken non was with the right focus so… that is the best one.


I had planned for this picture to be completely different BUT as you can see on the second picture to take it was almost impossible with my Little Darling standing in front of me trying to eat that strawberry. Too bad I couldn’t take a photo of her from up front. She was standing with her mount wide open hoping I will give it to her and I finally did.

… and of course the dog is always where I am. These two always follow me whenever I go. So these days the only place I can hide and have some “me time” is my bathroom but that works when my husband is around. If he is not those two are in the bathroom with me as well (no matter what).


Don’t know how to explain that self-portrait.

That day I was in a mood of something different and I was celebrating one week to my surgery 🙂


Taking this picture I thought that I have to make one week of my selfies devoted just to my rings. These days my fingers are too swollen to wear them but normally my rings are very important part of me. This one is the oldest ring I have. It’s almost 15 years old and there was a long period in my life in which I wouldn’t go out without it. If that happened and I noticed that it’s not on my finger I went back home to put it on. Good old days 😉


Yesterday I started to crochet a scarf for newborn pictures. I have some ideas for when our Little Sister gets home and I thought I need some pictures props. I’m planning to make some nice and easy head bands, too.

I would’ve be done by now with this scarf but I run out of yarn. Gotta visit Michaels today.

Have a great weekend, my friends.

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