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365 Self-Portrait Project (week 18)

I’m writing this post being not in my twenties anymore. One day I woke up feeling 30 and that was it. As my friend says: “Life begins after 30″ ;)

I think my life have really started when I had my first baby.

Before that it was just preparing, tasting, seeking… .

These days my life flies by and I don’t know when and how. It’s crazy:

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… and this picture is the evidence for that ;)

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Those pictures were taken on the run. The one with my reflection was literally taken on the run. I started the day thinking how great self-portraits I’m going to take at the Mystery Spot in Santa Cruz (it’s a link to a few pictures and a short story from our trip) where we were going but not knowing the life with two small kids that well I overestimated it and there was no way for me to just relax and have at least 5 minutes for myself up there. Our screaming and throwing tantrums No 1 focused all the attention on her. Not only my attention but all the people who were around us trying to enjoy their tour.

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It might look a little confusing with the first picture in which I’m breastfeeding her… .

I bottle-feed her as well… .

She is not a very good eater. She still sleeps a lot and the only way for me not to loose my milk supplies and for her to get enough milk is pumping and bottle-feeding her in between breastfeeding. [sigh!]

At least this time I have an electric pump not manual like with my No 1. I HATED IT!!!

So at the same time I was feeding No 2, No 1 was having her breakfast and I was trying to eat mine while going through the pictures for this post.

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She is the most happiest baby while sleeping on me or her dad. No matter how uncomfortable her position looks she doesn’t care.

You think this was comfortable?:

I don’t ;)

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…and again.. day with the Little One on my arms. Sleeping.

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Out of the dish washer detergent :)

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whole wheat blueberry-banana pancakes for breakfast. It’s all seems like a quiet morning but just for your notice I took this picture about 20 minutes ago (11:20am) and after that I put away that fork and gobbled down a few of those like I didn’t eat for a week. There is no time to enjoy food these days ;)

My head is spinning today and the only thing I think of is to go for a long walk. Just me and my camera.

… or to sit and cry! Cry the hell out of me…

Oh NO, wait… the first thing I think about is a SHOWER!!! I wish I could take a long, hot shower, than I wish I could sit and cry the hell out of me… and then clean on my body and soul go for a long lonely walk.

How does that sound… for me it sounds like a wishful thinking… .

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44 thoughts on “365 Self-Portrait Project (week 18)”

  1. You’re an amazing Mom…..and the first photograph is proof that you’re an incredible multi-tasker. You’re doing a great job.

    Is there some way, your husband could watch your children for at least 30 minutes a day, so that you could go outside by yourself with your camera?
    That little bit of time, would be all about you…..I know you would come back home with a smile on your face….

    Sandra

  2. I think it’s so great that you are still getting your pictures & selfies in with all you have going on. You rock! I did the pump thing. I could never get my kids to latch- so I exclusively pumped for a year for each of them. You got to do what works for you & your situation- it’s good that you are able to do both.

  3. wow, lots of sharing your life here. Haveing a newborn is quite a change in ones life.
    That shower an walk sounds like a good idéa. Sometiems we need a moment to reflect on things. Even our small loved ones. Thanks for sharing . :) You are a great photographer too.

  4. tak sobie klikam i patrze na rozne prace itrafiam na Twoje… kurde no nie da sie przejsc niezauwazenie, kazda praca ma w sobie cos co mnie zatrzymuje przy niej, masz swietne wyczucie, swietne kadry. Twoje prace zyja!!!!!

    1. Ha! to się nazywa “komentarz”!!! Dzięki Paweł ! Ja dzisiaj jestem w nastroju gotowym do porzucenia tego projektu. Doła mam i tyle. Dwójka dzieciaków na karku i każde wyje w tym samym czasie i wszyscy głodni i ja głodna i ogólnie porażka.

      Przejdzie mi na pewno a to dzięki takim komentarzom jak Twój !

      1. To widze nie jesrem sam przechodzacy dolki. Glowa do gory, kobiety sa silniejsze niz faceci i potrafia zniesc duzo wiecej, chwilowe powatpienia sa normalna czescia kazdego z nas… jest taka piosenka :) ” always look on the bright side of life…” Az zazdroszcze ci jak pieknie fotografujesz, to jest jakby sie ogladalo film :)

        1. czego Ty mi tutaj zazdrościsz?! popatrz na swoje zdjęcia i komentarze ludzi! to chyba coś znaczy!
          a tak na marginesie to dobrze wiedzieć, że nie jestem sama z tymi dołami. podołujmy się zatem razem, tak wirtualnie! ;)

  5. In always interesting to take a peek into your life. Those shots of you feeding the baby while cooking were great (way to multi-task). The pancakes look delicious.

  6. You so beautifully captured the art of what we do! Especially with such a little one, isn’t it amazing how you can nurse while doing EVERYTHING! I will say that yes, life begins at 30 which is unfortunate when you start having kids at 20 like me. :) Beautiful pictures!

  7. Oh sweetheart, you sound so tired. I’m sending you a big hug. I hope things will calm down here shortly. At least she’s sleeping and not screaming. The one with her upside down on Jay asleep made me laugh.

  8. It’s a real blessing to be able to communicate and relate through blogging. I think many of us have had similar times of mothering in recent years and no contact with the outside world to help get us through. Blogs are a wonderful outlet and point of contact for those days and weeks when it’s almost impossible to leave the house.

    1. You’re so right!!! So many times I though I can’t keep up with this project because I am too tired or just simply without any ideas BUT then I though how many great and supporting comments I get when I post my pictures from this project and I feel like it HELPS me to deal with what you just said :)
      It keeps me going and it makes me feel better about myself and about being tired momma ;)
      thank you for your great comment!

  9. Love the nursing and cooking. I don’t think I’m that talented! And, you seriously look awesome!

    And, the showers..the long, hot nice ones? They come..soon and you’ll be able to enjoy it.

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